Well, at PANIC!, there’s an excellent first-person account titled: “My first panic attack”. The piece does a nice job of describing how a mundane moment is exploded by total panic. In fact, if you’re interested in the subjective experience of panic disorder, you’ll find post after post of well written descriptions of and musings on panic disorder and how it has affected one person’s life. The writer, Eric Wilinski, is writing a book, and “has been dealing with panic disorder for 20 years”. An excerpt:
And then it happened. What is this feeling? I wondered briefly. In the next instant, my focus zeroed in on my chest, where, suddenly and without warning, my heart had started flapping and fluttering like a bird with clipped wings trying to escape its cage.
Well worth the read at PANIC!